My name is Ksenija, I currently work as a founding tutor at the Camden and Islington Recovery College and a facilitator of one to one hearing voices support at Mind in Camden. I am an artist, writer and creator of Fluidity of Self.
I would like to tell you a story of my secret friend. This friend helped me to develop: Fluidity of Self, Time to Create and Space to be Different.
One day I dreamt of a cosmic snake, in the shape of a coil, slow moving, infinite and beautifully bright. I was sitting on a chair alone when the snake unravelled and prophesied the coming of Fluidity of Self.
You’ll go into a volcano and in the heat of the lava you'll discover two tinny dots of light, pure energy. They'll lead you to treasured place within where the movement of cosmic snake is. A knowledge of life experience. A place of fluid , true self, which moves slowly like a snake knowing who it is.
In waking life this dream was so vivid. I couldn't put the snake out of my head. I thought of snake as me, which frightened me. As somebody who escaped war in the former Yugoslavia, I experienced challenges to figure out who I am. And I questioned my many national identities. Am I Ex-Yugoslav, Croatian, British, Bosnian and Hercegovian, refugee?
With help from others I ventured into the unknown, onto self-discovery voyage to see where the snake will take me. I researched mental health field and reflected on my work with people who experience mental health challenges. I coined the idea of Fluidity of Self and facilitated the first workshop at the International Hearing Voices Congress in Boston.
First self-discovery in understanding, was that struggles can arise from being rigid with our identities rather than being fluid with who we are. The snake became my inspiration calling me for transformation.
Soon after I realised that the snake and I weren’t alone, I started meeting people who were interested in Fluidity of Self. I met Christina Barrett Jones, a writer, who became my collaborator in developing it further. Through 2-year creative process together we played with empty boxes. And through it we birthed six principles, which helped me see it as an experience.
Second self-discovery was getting to know myself and my creativity. The snake became my guide helping me prophesied words and images onto paper. I discovered my archetypes and the story of Isabel Pickett. And I realised, I am a writer.
Next on my voyage I met Dr Adrian Low and Eugenia Kam, who became my collaborators on Time to Create Programme. I began to teach them Fluidity of Self and the six principles. Our work became about developing it further and rooting it in Psychology and Bruce Lee’s-Jeet Kune Do Philosophy making it about self-awareness, harmonising emotions and working with our resistance in order to see ourselves.
Third self-discovery was trusting myself. I realised not knowing who I am is not to be feared, but to be embraced. The snake became my collaborator showing me how to let go of my past and trust my experience and befriend my shadow so I can teach it to others.
Continuing on my voyage, I began to define my work with Mirela Kulovic. I introduced her to a play with boxes and we created Space to be Different. With deep roots in spirituality, wellbeing and art practice our work became about having fun with our different identities and liberating ourselves from rigid rules about life. I reflected on my drawings, visions and archetypes and realised that I am an artist.
This was a final step in my self-discovery. The snake became my friend helping me see life from both polarities, up close and from a distance. And I realised I can choose who I am. I can be an artist, a writer, a teacher, mother, ex-refuge, and so much more, be part of collective and still be cantered in one individual that I am.
I hope you have a powerful friend as I do. If you don’t, I suggest you find one as soon as possible and let it take you on a voyage of self-discovery. With great friends everything is possible.
Lots of love,
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